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  current mood: season 4 of stranger things, duh. i will not give any spoilers for this season you're welcome. (wait guys thats the name of my blog) anyway i'm halfway through episode three and it is pretty okay. not as good as season 3 but it is worth watching. that is all i will say on the matter because honestly i don't care. literally one second ago i got a call with no caller id and i wish i answered it because god knows i need something interesting in my life.  lately been obsessed with my typing skills, not to brag or anything. i did online typing lessons from a young age and now i'm sooo good at it. i can type with my eyes closed which is a fun little thing to do. makes me feel smart or something. still working on knitting a certain purple scarf. if you actively pay attention to my twitter you may have heard of it. it is probably like four feet long by now and im just gonna use up the whole yarn ball. knitting is a great thing to do while watching stranger thing...

  finally have a new therapist. finally. now i have someone to talk talk talk to and they are paid to listen😊 i think prior to that but also currently my blog is my therapist. so if you are reading this you are my therapist. congratulations. the thing weighing on my mind the most lately is my endless boredom. not really in the moment, i am ok being bored now that i am older. but in a more retrospective way i cannot stand it. i am a teen after all and us teens are supposed to party all day all night and such. i mostly play the sims and such. i think i have accidentally curated myself over time to be viewed as someone who does not like social situations, physical contact, parties, etc. i miss that party-every-weekend moment of my life. also i am so endlessly and overwhelmingly lonely. but i will leave it at that god forbid someone actually reads this. listening to new nymphet alumni as i write this, but naturally i can only focus on one set of words at once so i have no idea what th...

  current mood:i showered without contacts or glasses (my prescription is -4.75) and it was actually quite scary and inconvenient. like i can't shave my legs because i can't see my legs. had a weird realization this morning about my poor eyesight. mostly about how scary it is.  i tried to do my makeup without my contacts and it was so hard! i kept bumping my eyeliner into the mirror because i had to get real close to be able to see. and my eyebrows look like shit.  ok moving on. i played the game We're Not Really Strangers for the first time. highly recommend it. one of the most vulnerable and honest conversations i've had in a while. all right i'm gonna take a different route entirely now and list some of my favorite music videos because i can 😙 (not in a particular order) Girls Like Girls by Hayley Kiyoko no explanation needed. Feels Like Summer by Childish Gambino so fun to watch, makes me think to myself "hey i know those guys" Little Swing by Aron...

  spring awakening is over. we had three performances, all of which were actually quite good, but the last one was definitely the best. I've been utterly distraught ever since. I mean, life has been moving along as usual, but I can't seem to get it off my mind. yesterday at school a bunch of us watched Spring Awakening: Those You've Known, which is the newly released documentary about the reunion concert. I though all would be well and good, but the second I heard that first note of "Don't Do Sadness" at the beginning of the film I started sobbing. I really shocked myself, I didn't realize just how much I cared about this show. It was truly one of the most thrilling and incredible experiences of my life, certainly the best thing I've done this year.  If theres any blog post I wouldn't want people to read, it would probably be this one. but regardless I will pour out my heart because I know nobody wants to listen to me irl.  I took t...