gorillaz calendar on my wall

 finally have a new therapist. finally. now i have someone to talk talk talk to and they are paid to listen😊

i think prior to that but also currently my blog is my therapist. so if you are reading this you are my therapist. congratulations.

the thing weighing on my mind the most lately is my endless boredom. not really in the moment, i am ok being bored now that i am older. but in a more retrospective way i cannot stand it. i am a teen after all and us teens are supposed to party all day all night and such. i mostly play the sims and such. i think i have accidentally curated myself over time to be viewed as someone who does not like social situations, physical contact, parties, etc. i miss that party-every-weekend moment of my life. also i am so endlessly and overwhelmingly lonely. but i will leave it at that god forbid someone actually reads this.

listening to new nymphet alumni as i write this, but naturally i can only focus on one set of words at once so i have no idea what they're talking about.

i am very proud of my blog. when i wrote that very first post i thought there was no way i could keep up with this and surely i would forget. but here i am four months and twenty posts later, still at it. congratulations me. this has been one of my favorite things that i have put my time into. i think it is very satisfying to see the blog posts add up over time, i feel like a little niche underground person. can't imagine anyone i don't know has stumbled upon my blog but i hope one day they do so maybe i can become the next sensation. actually i do not care because i am already the biggest fan of my blog. i am so interesting and i say such cool things. and strangely enough all my blog posts are about things i'm interested in😙

ok follow my letterboxd. its @ameliafae14 i have notoriously bad taste but do with that what you will. and i don't care either way because I like the movies i watch and that is all that matters.

ok thats all bye x