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dear blog, i have returned. i know it has been far too long but I don't really feel bad about it. that's not what this is about after all. 

i write to you now as a college student. it has been almost two weeks since i moved in. eleven nights. it has been unbearably hot. i've only been able to sleep under my blanket maybe three times. when it's hot everything feels like it moves more slowly. like there is a lag when i try to move my body through the heat. 

it feels like i've done so much in this short time i have been here. ear piercings, parties, auditions, climbing gyms, target runs, movie nights. and just as much time has been spent in my room. i think the endless possibilities to make friends accidentally gave me the go-ahead to not try, comforting myself with the idea that i would end up making friends eventually. and i have, just not in the ways i was anticipating. 

there are moments when i forget i'm at college, sometimes when i've been off campus for too long, or i get engrossed in a TV show. 

my main song of the moment is thoroughfare by ethel cain. i listened to it one day on the nine-minute drive to target, and probably every day since. it was one of the first ethel cain songs i was ever introduced to, but it didn't particularly stand out to me. not sure what changed in the past weeks, but i fell in love with it. i'm seeing ethel next month, and i am so inarticulably excited. (sorry i think i just made up a word?) if you've never heard her music, give it a listen. i recommend starting with the entire preacher's daughter album in order. (⋆ˆ ³ ˆ)♥

ending this post here. it's been too many minutes and i haven't thought of more to say. hopefully i will be back soon with more. 

till next time x

media of the week:

audio:

your favorite sidekick- underscores

locals (girls like us)- underscores

spoiled little brat- underscores

sylvia plath- ana kennedy

thoroughfare- ethel cain

the grudge- olivia rodrigo

visual:

shiva baby

bottoms

fionna and cake

one piece live action