it's time to love my blog again

 hello again darling blog.

i write to you now from my new laptop. currently eating earl grey ice cream and listening to doja cat in the dining room with the lights off. it's raining. yesterday was prom. this was the senior prom of my old high school that i left 2+ years ago. it was a weird experience. sort of unwelcoming-i-shouldn't-be-here, sort of i-don't-care-i'll-never-see-these-people-again. it was very strange to be faced all at once with these people who i used to see every day, but have only seen on Instagram for the past few years. to see people that i spent halloweens with, attended football games with, sat with at lunch, and to be strangers now without a second glance. all at once and then never again. hello again and goodbye forever. but i'm being dramatic. it was just a high school dance like any other.

right now i am hating summer. the season itself, not this particular one. i am so tired in this heat. it feels like every other day i can barely leave my room. 

okay i am done being stupid and sad!!!! i just reread a blog post from February 2022 (i wrote 9 posts that month) and was reminded of how fun this blog used to be!!! when did i become so sentimental and melancholy? i am cutting short all which i have already said in this post. it is time to love my blog again. 

this morning i reread heartstopper book 4 all in one sitting. and I've been rewatching the show, all in anticipation for the second season. 

i graduated high school! registered for college classes a few days ago too. i am so excited to have this new novelty in my life! it's almost time to play college student simulator, and i think it's gonna be a fun game.

that's all for today. see you when i have something new to be dramatic about. 

in:

• badminton
• doja cat
• heartstopper
• chocolate
• singing opera in languages i don't speak

out:

• summer heat
• driving at night
• being depressing

songs of the second:

• bad beer by slaughter beach, dog
• boss bitch by doja cat
• vegas by doja cat
• poison root by alex g
• united in grief by kendrick lamar
• america has a problem by beyonce
• juliet by cavetown
• two of us on the run by lucius