anticipation

 current mood: liquid iv and vitamins. feeling: healthy.

crazy that we're almost through february already and i haven't posted. 

 

currently grappling with the consequences of speaking something into existence. take that as you will.

had a pretty wonderful past week actually. no valentine this year but i had a sweet day anyways. the world has started creeping into spring, and once again i am reminded that i probably have seasonal depression. the excitement to go to school each day is returning. the pain in my chest on the car ride in the morning has been replaced with anticipation. exciting things are happening at school. new classes. new friends. feeling something i don't know how to describe. it's how i feel when i've sat in the kitchen at school for too long.

the end of the week consisted of very good and very bad all squished together.

managed to make an appearance at the valentines ball despite quite a bit of struggle. and i have a maybe sprained ankle so i couldn't even dance.

no school this week. many tentative plans. 

actually been watching the last of us. yeah its good.. really good.

song of the moment: night shift by lucy dacus. keep listening to it when i write in my diary.

it's finally sinking in that i am going to college! feeling very excited. knowing that i have so much to look forward to is really wonderful. 

bye for now x